Promises of growing old with you.

 

From the video call to not seeing each other.
From knowing each single moment of day to don't know about anything.
From I love you the most to i really really missing you.
From past to present,
I compiled..
I compiled your laugh, i compiled your smile i compiled your anger. I compiled in everything thing in my heart
They say that it's not hard to move on.. But is it really not hard..??
I put the question to myself. That-
The people who meant to be your word
The person who was your day maker
The person who was the reason of your smile,
How that that person be cause of your pain, hate and depression
Sometime i put myself in place of you and compare the situation.
And i realised that our relationship was not meant to end earlier.
And it hurt when I realised
We could see the dream of growing old with each other.
We could more crazy talk in late night of having one baby and 2 dogs.
We could have the innocent fight for there name..
We could hold the 2 am conversation more..
But we couldn't
You know they say, they say that you were not deserving to grow old with me..
And it really feel like taunt.
No matter you are with me or not even today i can't face when someone says anything negative about you. But after sometime it hurt.
I have heard the story of fairy tale and happy ending.
Then why our ending is not happy.
I question, I think, i see the weaker version of myself but still i love you.

I don't know about future but spending a single second in presents is a great moment for me

When you broke up, you told that you will keep all  your promises in another life.
So do you keep those promises? In another life.
Cause I'm gonna wait until you don't keep the promises of growing old with each other.
Learning from each other I'm growing old with memory of our love, and I remember loving you